I’m so much happier now that I’m dead. Technically, missing. Soon to be presumed dead. Gone. I am gone and my lazy, lying, cheating, oblivious husband will go to prison for my murder. Nick Dunne took my pride and my dignity and my hope and my money. He took and took from me until I no longer existed. That’s murder. Let the punishment fit the crime.

GONE GIRL (2014) dir. David Fincher

“In the end, the fact remains: Amma enjoyed hurting.” - Sharp Objects

“But I know you must know this: Amy likes to play God when she’s not happy. Old Testament God.” - Gone Girl

Nick loved a girl I was pretending to be. “Cool girl”. Men always use that, don’t they? As their defining compliment: “She’s a cool girl”. Cool Girl is hot. Cool Girl is game. Cool Girl is fun. Cool Girl never gets angry at her man. She only smiles in a chagrined, loving manner. And then presents her mouth for fucking. She likes what he likes, so evidently he’s a vinyl hipster who loves fetish manga. If he likes Girls Gone Wild, she’s a mall babe who talks for football and endures buffalo wings at Hooters. When I met Nick Dunne I knew he wanted “Cool Girl”. And for him, I’ll admit: I was willing to try. I wax-stripped my pussy raw. I drank canned beer watching Adam Sandler movies. I ate cold pizza and remained a size two. I blew him, semi-regularly. I lived in the moment. I was fucking game.

Gone Girl (2014) dir. David Fincher

Gone Girl // Dark Places // Sharp Objects (the book)

Gone Girl (2014) dir. David Fincher

Gone Girl (2014), dir. David Fincher

Gone Girl (2014, dir. David Fincher) // A Simple Favor (2018, dir. Paul Feig)